B12 Please Help in time

This is my post on 2012 .. Please read it

B11 Struggle to See my son

Its past about two months from I was struggling all the means to be with my son.. I don't know still
what mistake I have done ?
Why I was not allowed to see my own son?
What should I have to do?
Why my most loved one is not at all communicating with me ?

At least a phone call... Tried all the way but no answers are given ..

So for everyone there is the last chance ..
Am going to approach court to get justice ..

This all happened when I have detected with HOCM a heart problem ..

I may have few days or may have long life .. Its common to all .. For that what we should do is to take care ourselves and our beloveds ..

Being with loved ones will increase life span .. But for me ... 

B10 Dreams are Painful

Time always created pain, the most intolerable is mental pain. Yesterday night I sleep late night and it was a cool rainy night.  In sleep I had a dream .. And almost my tears made my pillow wet ..

We, me achu and our son were in a jungle. There was no one around .. It was seems to look like a hiding place .. A small hut made using bamboo leaves and just a small opening to ..

It was the fine .morning our son is playing outside .. I was uttering her to take care of our son and assuring her that I will return soon after getting some job for the day .. And with necessary for next days life ... I left the hut after a hug ..

I reached back after some time with food and toys for my son and we had our food and care there ..

I woke up by 4:00 am with a deep kiss I. Her lips ..  From that moment her smell and love is with me around and my heart started raised it beats above 90+ and  deep sorrow hurts me ..

Latter I called her but the telephone is not working ... And am in a deep sorrow mood and actually
I am lost ... Lost everything