B08 With Broken Heart

Today 31-1-2015
I am now realizing that my family is broken ! And all interested to break it ..

What shall I do ? We are the losers ... And because of her father's greedy my son is going to suffer which I don't want to be happen ... I know the pain of being alone without father and mother united ..  And the same is going to happen to my son ...

I cannot see what I am typing .. As the tears are blocking the view ..

One of her uncle and some other family members have paid a visit to my house to talk about separation .  They are note came to join but to separate .

We don't have any issues between us .. The only issue being she was not allowed to be with me .. I know there were no issues in a family which long more than 2 hrs .. Even if there is .. it is the duty of parents to keep the family secure .. But here her family man is the one .

What is his problem ..

Everything started from this ..

One evening I reached her home after a travel from kochin and she was there to take care her mother .. When I reached I was very much tired due 300km drive .  we slept by 9 pm .. We were waken up by door knock of one neighbour .. He battered me that Her mother has expired by early morning at about 3:00 aswathy ran down.
I came down and seen the crowd .. I got angry that why we were not called at time ?
I asked for the doctor who confirmed it .. But the answer was there was no doctor confirmed ... I asked them to take the body to hospital . but I was locked up in the nearby room and they are counseled me not to go for and they don't want the body undergo postmortem ... After achu also req I stopped protesting ..

But my doubts were still remain and now it anchors ...
It is a planned and executed murder because of the below facts ..

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I was woke up only after 3 hours of death as per their talk ... 
Doubt :- if it was a normal death I should the first person woken up by him .. Because I am in the next room and am her son in law

He need to secure that I should not take her to hospital ..

Proper time for death news circulation and crowd will reduce my protests.

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Last night when I reached home while I asked about Sudha am as health . Mr. vijayan (my father in law ) replied she is OK and sleeping .. I don't like to woke a sleeping person so thought will see her n morning .. When I peeped she was using concentrator for oxigen .. And in early morning she died .

If he know she was serious .. Why she is not been in a medical attention at hospital .. It secure the doubt that he was waiting for her death .. And he wants it to be done when I am in home ..

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Before 6 months of death I have taken her to  NIMS hospital Neyyattinkara .. And that time it was diagnosed excess oxigen content in blood which may cause due increased or excess use of concentrator  .. When we spoke with Sudharma Amma about it she uttered that "vijayan , her husband as my father in law , will increase the flow of oxigen concentrator which she used while in night by saying that she may sleep better .

He know that excess flow is danger as directed by her doctor ..

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I was not allowed to take my wife with me after her mother expired ..

After Sudharma s death Mr. Vijayan may try to make everything in his name but the current legal system only allows the transfer of deceased property of a women to her children .. In this case it was only my wife ..

The. He tried to sell the properties .. That time also they are in require of my willingness which they know .. Is not going to be given ..

Accompanied with many other incidents that he purposefully tried the separation and other incidents .. I have a strong doubt .

That NY mother in law is been killed by him...

But still am suffering to be united .. I doesnot tried things to get be complicated because I want my family and my wife .. As I lobed her most ..

After losing her I became unstable and slowly I lost everything because of the mental health ..  

Today she called me again and sent some persons to separation needs .. I have cleared them ...

I will give divorce as she want but one half of her property is to be transfered to our son's name ...

B07 from Court

On 21-1-2015 sitting in family court for expressing my unwillingness to honorable court .. A lot of memories crossing through my mind ...

Before 5 years when I see her first, till that day I don't Belive on "Love at first Site" but its still in my breath ....

It a class from her mother started everything. She just enquired about me and I gave her my moms number because I had made a discission that my future and selection of her daughter in law should be done by my mom, I made because of many reasons .. They have arranged our first visit ... My uncle Mr. Muralidharan one of my friend Mr. jijo and mom and One family friend accompanied me because it was the custom here.

When I first seen her, she was wearing a brown silk saree and I actually fell in love with .. On the day I took the decision that she will be my life partner for the life time ..
But now am sitting on the court, because she don't want to live with me .. Some times god is so cruel that he separate loved ones .. Both of us love deeply each other even though we have to face this .. She was emotionally influenced by her father but how should I leave her ...

Only my death can separate us ..

B06 Remembering the day

On this day, while am traveling in a train towards Trivandrum am remembering a Saturday 01-01-2012 ... in this life I cannot forget that day .. Which reversed my  whole life.. Taken everything I have and had,

One December 31st night we are in the rented home at payyannur, which was took some months before only, my wife was at her home for some days and I was planning for going back to tvm within 4 days to get back her.

At night Shiyas, my fellow QC with Kerala State Handloom Development Corporation was also in my house watching the TV overnight .. I had a little fever hence it was mild I didn't took any medicines for. At about 10 pm mild cough also developed and mild pain through the left arms. I planned to visit doctor by morning ..

on early morning I got vomiting and it continued for about 15 minutes followed by shivering. So of I got fainted and Mr. Shiyas along with one of my uncle's friend took me to Safa hospital at Payyannur.

Duty doctor checked me thoroughly and took some blood sampling followed by the diagnosis that I got Dengue fever and need Blood Transplantation to do urgently. I was an a mild conscious mood and decided to undergo treatment but not in that hospital, on my request I was taken to Pariyaram Medical college.

On the arrival in causality I have been diagnosed with a cardiac defective symptoms, not the dengue and immediately taken to CCU ..   ...

After 14 days I was been discharged and we, along with vijayan father of aswathy, came to Trivandrum.  I know both my wife's and Mother's minds and eager to see me, on reaching my wife house father in law has made and order not to leave home and further treatment's will be decided. My mom is in tension at home and I also be happy in my home .. So I have decided to be in my home, which was about 10 km from there, my wife reduced to join me and she wished to stay with her father only,

By hearing those words, I was shocked and had an intuition of losing my wife for ever, it may be my health or some one may have told her that " I will die soon" so to reduce her pain !

Within short days I realized with fear that my institutions were right and my wife started identifying and created situations to be separated from me ..

I was in treatment for about 6 months and during these period with pain I remember my wife was with me for about a weak or so ... During one such time even she asked a question, which a husband never expects from a wife ..
" will I get job, if you die? If so what should I do for that "
If I was in god health this question wouldn't make any feelings in, but at that time I don't know how to express that feeling ..

That question and further some actions from my father in law made me think of resigning to job from Govt. Service because to be safe alive with my wife and son ..

.... Next new thoughts and recovery ..