On this day, while am traveling in a train towards Trivandrum am remembering a Saturday 01-01-2012 ... in this life I cannot forget that day .. Which reversed my whole life.. Taken everything I have and had,
One December 31st night we are in the rented home at payyannur, which was took some months before only, my wife was at her home for some days and I was planning for going back to tvm within 4 days to get back her.
At night Shiyas, my fellow QC with Kerala State Handloom Development Corporation was also in my house watching the TV overnight .. I had a little fever hence it was mild I didn't took any medicines for. At about 10 pm mild cough also developed and mild pain through the left arms. I planned to visit doctor by morning ..
on early morning I got vomiting and it continued for about 15 minutes followed by shivering. So of I got fainted and Mr. Shiyas along with one of my uncle's friend took me to Safa hospital at Payyannur.
Duty doctor checked me thoroughly and took some blood sampling followed by the diagnosis that I got Dengue fever and need Blood Transplantation to do urgently. I was an a mild conscious mood and decided to undergo treatment but not in that hospital, on my request I was taken to Pariyaram Medical college.
On the arrival in causality I have been diagnosed with a cardiac defective symptoms, not the dengue and immediately taken to CCU .. ...
After 14 days I was been discharged and we, along with vijayan father of aswathy, came to Trivandrum. I know both my wife's and Mother's minds and eager to see me, on reaching my wife house father in law has made and order not to leave home and further treatment's will be decided. My mom is in tension at home and I also be happy in my home .. So I have decided to be in my home, which was about 10 km from there, my wife reduced to join me and she wished to stay with her father only,
By hearing those words, I was shocked and had an intuition of losing my wife for ever, it may be my health or some one may have told her that " I will die soon" so to reduce her pain !
Within short days I realized with fear that my institutions were right and my wife started identifying and created situations to be separated from me ..
I was in treatment for about 6 months and during these period with pain I remember my wife was with me for about a weak or so ... During one such time even she asked a question, which a husband never expects from a wife ..
" will I get job, if you die? If so what should I do for that "
If I was in god health this question wouldn't make any feelings in, but at that time I don't know how to express that feeling ..
That question and further some actions from my father in law made me think of resigning to job from Govt. Service because to be safe alive with my wife and son ..
.... Next new thoughts and recovery ..
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