Now its about midnight of the day, i cant sleep, i tried but am not getting it, may be because even today, i thought of my achu, she may come back to live with me, that believe and my love is the only one force kept me away from committing suicide, but that also lost.
Today (20-04+2016) evening i got the news that achus marriage is been fixed with someone in her family, and when i seen her in court on 19th, she was wearing the same saree which she wore on our first meeting raised my hope, but all gone !
All my love and my life is wasted. Nobody knows my heart, even she!
I became mad, when i was about to los, but when she came back to me, i was the one who was happy than any in this world. I thought she had realized my innocent love. But just a week after she started suspecting me and my friends, for that she has a lot evidence and names to tell, all names she uttered were my students. And i always loyal to my profession and acts.
I can swear to got of any that i doesn't slept or loved anyone else than my achu, in my life. But she is the only one who doesn't believed that, always i doubted someone were behind this.
When she started this fights in second time, i was clear that they wont allow me to live, because they want achu to marry him, and that was there previous plan before some years, but my achu cant realize it.
And now she is completely their doll. Me and our son abinav were became alone.
Achu has declared to court that she dont want her son, but i always want them. How can i spare him.
Today still now i cant get sleep, how do i, for whom i left my job?, for whom i left my career?, everything has gone.
The most pain is that, even all these time, she is not even realizing the truth that, i always loved her only.
My time is already expired because of the heart failure, and, she left me when i had the report.
At any cost, i have to be alive for ny son, because, till today i had the believe that she may be there for my son, if i passed away but now, i have to be alive at least when he gets a job.
I don't know, buy i have to because he has only his father. And he love his nom a lot than his father.
For me, at present, no job, no bank balance!, everything lost, as i told, i was lost when she started quarrel, because, i doesn't loved and none loved me!
In my school and collage days, while my friends were making relationships, i was decided, that i will make relationship only with my wife, and that only one also left me.
I am a fool.... I should have been with girls, and cheated them, because 100% of such one's are leading healthy family life, because, they know how to handle a girl, but i don't know that, due lack of experience.
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